Something's Working...

I didn’t sleep very well one night, woke up 30 minutes before having to clock in, ANNND then I hit a bazillion red lights on my way to work. My ears got hot, the area around my eyes started to tingle, and I felt my stress level rise every time brake lights flashed in front of me.

Like most people, I was irritated.

Judged.

Stop being lame. Allow yourself to have a great day.

I thought to myself: THIS is why life is so “hard”; we forfeit the wheel to insignificant situations (and people) that steer us off the path of happy-go-lucky to Pouty McPoutison Drive. I recollected myself, decided it wasn’t worth my energy, and shrugged it off.

Is it a coincidence that traffic cleared up afterwards?

I don’t think so.

Meanwhile, in other news, I’ve read two books last month, started writing again, dropped down to about 16% body fat, gotten significantly stronger, and am back to regularly sipping mochas at a local coffee hub. ‘Tis a good life indeed. Now, let’s read between the lines. Not only did I assume the responsibility to choose my battles but this intrapersonal upper hand is also accompanied by the luxury of time.

Something’s working in my favor.

Oh, hey!

Did I tell you I’m working full time in the hospitality industry? Silly me, I knew I forgot something. There were plenty of hops on and off the fence (and back on) until a conversation with a couple bromigos, who helped confirm my off the fence thoughts. Although I’m taken out of the gym for most of the week, I’m reimbursed with peace of mind, a steady income, and enough time to do what I love. Right now, this is worth it.

I am worth it.

Cheers to being in control.

If I were a pizza...

This one time, I tested positive for Chameleon, a favorable personality because (according to my answers) I am more likely to work well with others, less likely to cause conflict, and am able to adapt to any situation with more ease than most. I’m also a giver, a lover of love, and the type who wants everyone smiling. Because…

Why else are we here if we don’t bask in the warmth of hearts, hugs, & happiness?

Yes. I know I come off a bit naïve, definitely granola, but I’m a firm believer that societal and personal success is found through interdependence, sharing, and cohesion. On the flip side, you and I can see just how this mentality can lead to all sorts of issues...especially when you (meaning me) assume that everyone already thinks the same as you (again, not you) do.   

So what's the point?

Well, if I were a pizza, I’d be a combo slice of TOO giving and conformity caving. They’d call it the People Pleaser. The perfect toppings for any avid-toe-stepping-nay-saying-avoider, who looks for the right answers to opinion based questions. 

Yup. That was me...and still is to a certain degree. But I am learning…

...and growing a pair.

In the last two years, I’ve worked myself until I had nothing else to give professionally, emotionally, and mentally--all because the ratio of give to receive was never in equilibrium. Which brings me to why I left Arizona. Plain and simple, black and white…

I wasn’t happy. I wasn’t learning. I didn’t care.

My give tank was on E.

I decided that I’m no longer going to receive less than what I deserve…and neither should you. It’s so common for people who are great givers to be terrible takers because we fail to recognize that receiving well is just as important. I want you to think about why you give and then apply that reason to why people would want to give to you. Recognize your worth and know that it’s perfectly okay to take (just remember to say "thank you") and feel appreciated. With that said, wherever you fall on the Give/Receive Continuum, whether it’s far left or far right, the closer we are to the center, the better this world will be. 

Cheers to setting your standard!

Resurfacer, Queen of Positivity

I may be a little crazy to say this but there’s something refreshing about hitting rock bottom…or at least getting close to it…or reaching the bottom-est place you ever want to get. It’s at that moment you’re put in a position to make a real life decision. There is no Limbo or safety net or security blanket or even time. Just you and whatever you need.

Complete this sentence with the best possible answer:

When you sink to an all time low, you have to do what you have to do to in order to:

A)   Resurface

B)   Resurface

C)   Resurface

D)   Resurface

Clearly I’m not a sinker.

Despite my outward persona for the last couple months, I’m ready to admit that I wasn’t in the best place mentally or emotionally. Granted I didn’t go off the deep end, but I definitely made poor decisions and will freely admit that I didn’t love myself to the degree that I should have. And, of course, nobody knew this at the time because I was out swimming in The Nile (now saw it faster…The Nile, The Nile, De Nile, Denile, Denial, BINGO!).

But with all that said and out of the way:

I’m awesome and I know it…

NOW.

Cheers to resurfacing.